I can tell when I’m talking to you
That my words bounce right off and disappear with the smoke. So I take another drag and we sit in more silence
Your eyes well up with tears and I swear we have been here before.
I realize that time does not define a relationship.
10 years later and baby I do not know you.
I can’t find a single picture of you, I can’t hear your voice
When you lost your biggest fan, I hugged you at the church door and felt you collapse.
The weight of it all.
My best friend is living her worst nightmare and everyday she prays its all a dream.
And yo, honestly…I can’t look at her mother’s funeral program. So I keep it at the bottom of a chest.
Now I gotta stop writing because I’m crying.